I seems normal. Maybe to some people, I may be book smart as I can study (but not that good). But honestly, I'm an idiot in my own love and life. and I'm kind of crazy when I start to reflect my actions upon myself.

For me, neither both. I found out my reason why and it's because we have not yet found out the true meaning of love and life.

If we understand love, we will learn to appreciate it and not feel depressed about it. Take for example, a pet dog. When it passed away, you can no longer keep it anymore. You know it and being depressed over it doesn't help as you know that it has to go somewhere else (heaven).

All these while, I've not understand what love is. I did not appreciate it when it's given to me. I took it for granted. I've been acting like a kiddy who doesn't understand a single thing. I complained, argue, quarrel and messed things up.

Now, I've came to realize how childish I was. I finally understood what love is. Ok, maybe understand part of what love is. I'll stop being a kiddy and stop throwing tantrums here and there. Your love has always been here for me, and I'm so grateful for it. Thank you Dear ♥ Shondy Ang.

Shall not continue any further in case it gets mushy with all of you.

About life, up till now.. I have not found out the meaning of it yet. Yes, I'm attending church but at this point of stage, I'm pondering to myself if I'm a Christian. I do believe that there's a God who creates heaven and earth. I do believe God exist to help us here and there. I do believe that there's a purpose of me being here, in this world. and I also believe that there's a heaven. However, sometimes I "forced" myself to be a christian to ensure that I can go to heaven. Think is time for me to do some soul searching with God (actually I should have done it quite long ago, but temptations keep coming in). haha